I am ashamed to admit that I spend more time looking down and around than I do looking up. I spend more time thinking anxious thoughts and worrying than I do worshipping or praying. Sometimes it is so easy to just unplug from God and try in earnest to mark my own path. I eventually come face to face with my own folly and usually in a mess bigger than I can handle, always in absolute horror at my stupidity, I sink to my knees and utter my desperation for Him and His grace, mercy, and forgiveness. Lately though I have begun to see the need to just stay there.
On my knees.
To be quiet.
To know that He is God and what an enormous realization that is.