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Lisa Jo Baker Five Minute Friday
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When I was little I used to dream of two things, one being a professional ballerina for Joffrey Ballet and getting to dance Sugar Plum Fairy during the Christmas season, and two of being a wife & mommy and having my own home. 

While I never got to dance for Joffrey professionally, I did get to experience life as a professional dancer and it was amazing.  And a lot harder than I thought it would be. 

But by far the dream that reached the deepest in my heart, the one that I longed for the most was to have a home where I belonged.  Where there was peace and joy and unconditional love.  I wanted so badly to have a man love me with all that he was and for me to be able to give him that and more in return.  I deeply desired to have children that I could hold and love on and talk to and play with, in short do life with.  When I got married I realized that God had answered above and beyond what I could ask for.  When I became a mommy I realized I was in no way prepared to be who I wanted to be.  I have stumbled and flailed , but sometimes, when I stop and think about it, all I want to do is sink to my knees in awe of the God we serve.  He has hand crafted my home to be more than I ever hoped for.  More than I ever dreamed of.  More than I knew I was longing for.  Because in the day to day of life He has revealed Himself more clearly to me than ever before.  I never realized what I was actually longing for was for my home to be Him.  He was what I was hungering for, He just happened to use marriage and parenting as a way to teach me that. 

And while I am ever so thankful that He did, if I am honest I also have to admit how much time I spend complaining about the gifts I spent so much time praying for.  In writing this it has again reminded me of the wonder of each person here in my home. 

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Day Twelve

I want to leave little love notes for my children and husband where they will discover them through out the day.