2015 was a hard, difficult year that twisted and turned through valley after valley...it was a year of hard things. I have begun to absolutely dread the question: 'how are things'. I want to be able to say oooooh fabulous. We have money in the bank, health that overflows in abundance, we just went to Disney world, and will be serving as a family on the mission field this summer....but that's not my truth right now. My truth is that it's hard. In truth in 2015 instead of fighting for joy, I felt pummeled by the circumstances, defeated by the thought that it seems to just keep getting harder, and I haven't consistently felt the peace that I so desperately want to feel. I know I am not alone, others around me are just as battered and bruised by life, many a lot more than I am. So what's their secret? Why and how do they draw in closer to God? How do they tap into His peace? They see Him as their greater truth. I want that.
2016 dawned bright and beautiful. The circumstances didn't magically change when the clock struck midnight, but I want to. In 2016, I want my heart to be softer to Him, more patient and compassionate with those around me...even when dealing with the same issues over and over and over. I want to be generous even if I have little to give, I want to find joy in every single moment, especially the hard and ugly ones. And I want to be able to say, 'things are hard, but He is so, so good.'