Lisa Jo Baker Five Minute Friday
When I was little I used to dream of two things, one being a professional ballerina for Joffrey Ballet and getting to dance Sugar Plum Fairy during the Christmas season, and two of being a wife & mommy and having my own home.
While I never got to dance for Joffrey professionally, I did get to experience life as a professional dancer and it was amazing. And a lot harder than I thought it would be.
But by far the dream that reached the deepest in my heart, the one that I longed for the most was to have a home where I belonged. Where there was peace and joy and unconditional love. I wanted so badly to have a man love me with all that he was and for me to be able to give him that and more in return. I deeply desired to have children that I could hold and love on and talk to and play with, in short do life with. When I got married I realized that God had answered above and beyond what I could ask for. When I became a mommy I realized I was in no way prepared to be who I wanted to be. I have stumbled and flailed , but sometimes, when I stop and think about it, all I want to do is sink to my knees in awe of the God we serve. He has hand crafted my home to be more than I ever hoped for. More than I ever dreamed of. More than I knew I was longing for. Because in the day to day of life He has revealed Himself more clearly to me than ever before. I never realized what I was actually longing for was for my home to be Him. He was what I was hungering for, He just happened to use marriage and parenting as a way to teach me that.
And while I am ever so thankful that He did, if I am honest I also have to admit how much time I spend complaining about the gifts I spent so much time praying for. In writing this it has again reminded me of the wonder of each person here in my home.
I want to leave little love notes for my children and husband where they will discover them through out the day.